Jessica: "If It Doesn't Break Your Heart, It Isn't Love"

You don't know.

You don't know how much I love you.

Or how much I want you to meet the glorious God I serve.

Or how desperately I try to show you His splendor through my words and deeds.

You will never know.

You will never know the amount of time I have spent fighting for you in the spiritual war for your life.

Or that while you are eating, I am on my knees begging God to reveal Himself to you.

Or that while you are sleeping, my tears are spilling onto my pillow because I know you are hurting, and I know you are lost.

You will never know about the letters I wanted to send, the phone calls I wanted to make, the words I wanted to speak, but never could. 

Would it matter?

I wonder if it would make a difference if you knew.

If you knew that God was seeking after you.

If you knew that He loves you infinitely more than I ever could.

I wonder if I could do something more.  
        If I just prayed harder, loved deeper, spoke louder.  Would it matter?  Would you finally believe?

With each passing day my love for you grows deeper, and so does my heartbreak.  My heart is screaming out, but I find no words to say.

God, please show them the truth.  My friends, my beloved ones, need you.